**Thoughts Of Taris** # 55

Wassup  guys and gals,

How you all feeling today?

I honestly do not know what I am going to blog about today. My thoughts are just going to go where ever they please. So, here goes nothing.

I have been watching plenty of YouTube videos. YouTube is very fun. I feel like your YouTube account kind of describes who you are. Your account actually tells who you are. It tells who you are by who you listen to,  the type of videos you watch and who you are watching. So, let me tell you how my YouTube account is set up.

When I first sign into my account, the first thing you will see is Domo & Crissy……… (In their voice lol.) Yayyyy!!! They are my favorite couple of all time. I just love their energy. I watch Domo & Crissy because they honestly make me think. They make think about the positive side of a relationship. I can go on and on about them. They just amaze me sometimes. Domo & Crissy has this vibe that I do not see to much of in public. They do not really care what others think. They are just them. This is what drags me toward their videos. I can literally post plenty of links with them in it. You will be addicted just like me. I watch for the positive vibes, the fun vibes, & the just the energy over all. Domo & Crissy love over all makes me feel loved in a weird way. Also, they just had their baby as well. Congratulations to the both of them! Sometimes you have to have patience with one another in order to make things work out. You can’t rush everything the minute you feel they need to be rushed. I tried to take my time with things. It is just like every one is different.  Domo & Crissy makes me have this idea of what I been doing wrong in my past relationships and why they have not been fixed. My past relationships has not been fixed because their was no fun involved. They finally made a new post lol, I been wondering where they have been…..

So here are a couple links on who these two amazing people are. Have fun watching……… If you all want to comment on their videos, tell them that I sent you there. lol. Give me a shout out or something. This is one of their newest videos. I will post two more of their awesome videos.


This next one is a very old video…..

A relationship like this makes me realize that it is still love out their. But then again, people make me think that the word “love” is still fake. I am sorry if my mood on this is about to shift….It is a reason for this…..

A couple of things that’s been happening to me,

1.) One person said I was too clingy, it messed my head up for everybody.
2.) Someone said it said seems like I don’t care
3.) Someone said when I meet people, its like I just want to get to know them just for my career boost. I am not really there to build a relationship.
4.) They use me for money, I end up broke.
5.) They lose interest in me.
6.) The one person who actually loved me, passed away. Like, bro…..

My whole mood just shifted. If it ain’t one thing it ain’t the next. I thought I wanted a girlfriend right now but, IDK. It seem like everything I do is just wrong. This is actually making me want to give up on “love”………. SERIOUSLY.!!!

What is the next person who tries to come in my life going to say ?
“You irritating”……. 😭😔               

Even though this still happens to me, Domo & Crissy makes me feel like “love” is still their. So, Thank you Domo & Crissy for making me feel like it is still their. Your newest video came right on time. Welp, that is one part of my videos that I watch……

Other videos that I watch is, Natural Hair Tutorials……. 

I love Natural Hair Videos, Natural Hair Tutorials teach me on how to do different hair styles… I watch videos on YouTube that shows me different hair products… Hair products that moisturize on my hair. It is really fun though. I love my Natural Hair……! These type  of videos teaches me on how to take care of my hair. I feel like taking care of your hair should be your main priority. (Well, one of them)……Your “Regular Hair” is everything. If you can’t wear your regular on some days, I feel something is wrong with you. I say that because the hair that you were born with is the best thing to embrace around your surroundings. If you let someone help you with certain things like how to do your hair. You are willing to learn from others and are very humble. Your hair is very important. If you care a lot about your own hair, you will then start to care about others hair. Now, that is amazing. Can I get an Amen……?

Now, lets talk about music. Music tells a lot about who you are. Music is a great coping skill.

In other videos, I talk about Young M.A….. I am a huge fan of hers. I listen to her and other “Underground Artists”….. I mainly listen to “Underground Artists” because I relate to them more. I don’t really listen to “Bigger Artists” like that. I feel that they get more attention so, they do not need it from me as much. I will post links to some of my videos from my account. You all probably won’t even know some of these artists that I name…..

Here is my list….

1.) Young M.A

2.) Domo Wilson

3.) Chance The Rapper

4.) Jacquees

5.) Tinashe

6.) Bryson Tiller

7.) J. Cole

8.) Kendrick Lamar

9.) Tink

10.) Kodak Black

11.) The OMG Girls

12.) Mindless Behavior

13.) B5

14.) Kehlani

15.) August Alsina

16.) Pnb Rock

17.) Tory Lanez

18.) Dej Loaf

20.) Jhene Aiko

21.) Iggy Azalea

22.) Elle Varner

23.) Jacob Latimore

24.) Sydney Renae


So, here is an insight on my YouTube Account……I know you all will have fun with it because I constantly go back to my “History Videos” . I just be singing along and sometimes I be thinking I can sing. I will be honest. I was supposed to finish this post a couple days ago. Took me a long time and dedication. With all the videos and everything I told you guys. Here is a question to spark up the post. I will put the question in bold letters so you won’t miss it lol.


Welp, those are my thoughts for this post. I had fun, did you? Carry On and Have A Wonderful Day!!!! Smooches!!! 🙂




**Thoughts Of Taris** #53……

Hey cool kids and adults, 

I have a question for you all….

Does your personality scare people away that you like? Let that marinate in your head for a minute.

What I mean by that is, how you describe yourself. When we first meet someone they ask “What do you like to do in your free time?” You might say going out to parties, hanging out, drinking, etc…..Right? But, then when you ask them they say “sleep,  work, cuddle”….. So, you basically already have this perception in your head of how the relationship is going to go. 

Sometimes we have to let that perception of them go away and grow to love that person. You never know how the relationship is going to turn out. One day: they may say, “Babe, let’s go out”…. You end up shocked because you never thought it would come out of their mouth. You are always the one planning something for the both of you. Or the person who likes to go out all the time might say “Babe, I just want to cuddle today and just stay in the house”… Their face is at awe. You should never judge a person when you first talk to them. They might turn out to like you so much; that they change the way they do things. Sometimes they think well let me try this. Or let me say that. That person wants to make you happy at all costs. 

We can’t always turn down a person because of the things that they do. By that meaning, say if someone you really want to get know “smokes cigarettes”…. You tell them that smoking is a turn off for you. Even though smoking might be a problem for you, it might not be a problem for them. Smoking is something that makes them feel comfortable. If we tell them to stop, we are actually being “selfish”….. &This is where the situation gets turned around. You all might not last because they will think you have “selfish motives”……Get it……..If you are stepping back out into the dating force. You have to have an open mind but, still keep your standards at a minimum. If they can’t respect what you tell them, why keep them around? If they are trying to get a better understanding to keep this going, then yes keep them around. 

Just make sure you open up your mind for a better understanding. If you are just now getting to know them, don’t be desperate if they do something that you do not like. Sometimes you got to see how the first date goes. Sometimes you have to see how they act around certain people that you hang around. You just have to see what type of person they are in general. Signs are always accurate nowadays. Always pay attention. 
Sometimes giving a person a chance is a good thing but, it also can be a bad thing. 

You can either give them the chance to break your heart or make you happy. Dating someone who knows none of your friends nor family could possibly be a good thing and viceversa. It just depends on how you look at the situation. Dating could just be as easy. Having a positive mind could make it exciting. Being negative could make your dating life a living hell. 

Uhmmmmm lets see, oh yeah….. Don’t let others stop you on how you date. If you are dating online, keep doing it. (If it is working out for you.) If you keep getting great experiences well, skip what they think. If you are getting bad experiences, you might want to listen to them. It all depends on what makes you comfortable. Your soul mate could possibly be some where in cyber space and you don’t know that. Your soul mate could be some where out side of cyber space. We never know until we try different things. You do what makes you happy. But, always be cautious of what you are doing. Do not be so anxious and take it slow. 

Uhmmmmmm, lets seeee. Who ever you date, do not bring them around the family so early. I say that because if you have not been together for at least 6 months. They do not deserve to meet anyone. In 6 months, you get to learn how a person truly is. A relationship is just like a job. If you never show up and try your best, they will fire you and find someone else. Someone else could easily replace you just like that. 

Uhmmmmm, if someone asks you for money the minute they get a chance. Cut them loose. We do not need anyone begging during the entire relationship. Trust me on this. Once someone gets what they need, they will vanish quick as hell. 

Let me let you all in on a little story. 

I had a crush on someone. She was fine to me. I started to care for her once we started to talk. You know how you become so called “friends” with someone. Yeah so, I told her I liked her or whatever. Mind you, that one person used to send me Goodmorning text messages every morning. (SO CRAZY)…. !!! I thought she liked me too. (WRONG)……!!! She asked me for $75 for her situation. Knowing myself, I have a good heart. Yeah, I gave it to her. I know you all are probably thinking “Why in the hell would you do that?” I know, I know. I took that “L”. After I gave her the $75,  she started acting funny. I was not trying to move to fast. I was just like dang really. In my mind, I am like what happened to the morning messages. It hurt my feelings a little bit. I guess that is why people say take your feelings out of it and just take that “L”. I wasn’t in love with her or anything it was just like dang people actually do that. I didn’t want anything back. I just thought we was building a friendship or whatever. (WRONG AGAIN)!!! Now, I barely hear from her. & I bet once I actually get into a relationshio them messages gone come flying back. 

So, that was my little story. I barely see her anymore. BUMMER! I learned my lession on that. This is why you have to be very careful when you get back into the dating scene. ALWAYS HAVE AN OPEN MIND. NEVER JUDGE A BOOK BY WORDS OR ITS COVER. LOOK AT ITS IMAGES. 

Word of advice: BE YOURSELF. 

Tootles. I got to go now. Who ever is reading this, God Bless. Have a great night. !! 


Thoughts Of Taris#53……


**Thoughts Of Taris** #44….

Hey all, 

Love is a word. I want to express you all my perception of what love is. I want to express how I express my love for someone else. I technically have different ways of showing per se. I might throw hints at you and I might even give you a little smile. It all depends on how you make me feel. 

Here is one thing though. If I don’t receive it back than I might attend to get angry and insecure. It all depends on the type of love you give to me. Or shall I say “show”?  Some one asked me today, was I passive aggressive? This question is what brings me to this particular blog post. I usually don’t post twice a day.  I didn’t know what that meant so, now I am blogging about it. I kept my comments to myself and now I am looking it up. Has me thinking about certain things. Things like; past relationships, friendships and so on. Was I being passive aggressive? In a sense, I probably was but, then again who knows?  I simply show love by giving. I give constantly and constantly to make the other person happy. Instead of taking away from them. The only thing I want to receive is the heart, the mind, the soul and sometimes the body. 😂😂😂

When others come onto to me 👀, I can’t really tell. They have to literally show me that they are coming on to me. Unless, I will never know. Seriously!!! 😏 I’ll just think that you are creating small talk. I now feel like love is kind of unpredictable now and days. You can’t predict who is going to show you love in a way that you been talking to the universe about. I mean the universe connects two people for a reason. We never know that reason.  

The universe brings you two together in a weird place. A place that you would never ever think of. Right now, I am just going with the flow of things. I’ve been meditating on my body lately. So, who ever receives it, receives it while being cleansed. You get me? Sometimes going back to exes is probably not a proper way of cleansing my body. You get me now right? When I look at you, I am simply studying while also studying myself. With that being said, studying who we both are as human beings and how I can find a way to connect with you. I know, deep right? Some people think I be mean mugging them or I have a starring problem but, not really.😂😂😂💀 That is why I created Thoughts Of Taris to show others my perspective of why I do things. 

Some people say that I am interesting when they first have a conversation with me. But then, things change. I might be interesting to them but, they don’t keep my interest. It is certain things that you have to do in order to keep my interest. I will not name them because of the simple fact that some body might do them because they read this. 

That is not cool…..by the way….. 👊

Love is an excellent feeling if you show as much effort as the other person. You get me now right? Love can also be a disaster if you are too controlling in a sence. Love can become disastrous in many different ways. You have to accept the other person for who they are. You get me? I am talking to you but, I don’t think you are hearing me. 👂 Sometimes we just got to be careful of who open up to. I mean I am like an open book. 📖

You just have to stay long enough and open me up. My book is full of surprises. I mean I don’t bite. Yes, I love woman. I love boobs. I love buts. I love all the female body parts. Ask me questions? When you meet me, just get to know me. 💭👭 I have certain beliefs that others don’t know about. This is what communication is here for. I see how some people don’t get close to me because I sit in an area that does not involve a “group setting”.. It all depends on what group setting is in the room at the moment. It takes me a while to get comfortable with certain people. I am a very interesting person, try me. But, don’t come for me if you are not ready to handle my emotions. I am a emotional person as well. Do you think I am passive aggressive by reading this post? What you think? It is only your opinion so, doesn’t hurt me at all. OPEN BOOK, remember? Get to know me. Do you want me to start creating videos of my thoughts. What is your thoughts tonight? 👂👂

**Thoughts Of Taris** #44…. 


**Thoughts of Taris** #38…

**Thoughts Of Taris** #38 

Hey all, 

Are you a weird person? How weird are you? What skill would you rate your weirdness? 

On a scale from 1-10…..

My weirdness might be a little bit above 10, maybe like a 12. If some one says that you are doing too much then, they are doing too little. You might be the person to laugh outrageously. You might be the person who says weird things out loud. You might be the one who smiles at everything and then laugh. But, that is okay because you are being you. You can’t afford to be anyone else. People who are not weird are just plain normal and boring. They do everything that everyone else is doing. The”normal” ones. 

If you do not do everything that they are doing, you are considered lame. If you don’t party, you are a lame. If you don’t smoke, you are a lame. If you don’t drink, you are considered a lame. It all does not makes since to me, (at all)!!!! Just because we (weird people), don’t do what you do. That does not mean we are lame or whatever you want to call it. It means we just love to have fun. Having fun is not being weird. Being depressed all day is weird. Like, lighten up a little bit. Stop trying to impress others who probably think you are lame. If you get what I mean. Your weirdness is probably on 10 and you don’t even know it. I bet, you got a little fun inside you too. You are just hiding it. You might smirk when you see something funny. Ain’t nothing wrong with that but, show your teeth just a little bit. Show your dance moves a little bit. You aint too damn good to live life. Stop being the person who judges others because you “ARE NO FUN” How about that??? 

You have a different weirdness because you are being YOU. Let it out. This goes for males and females. Stop ignoring the inner you. The inner you is screaming “LET ME OUT”!!!!! I love being weird. Yayyyy, for the weirdos who embrace it. Go above and beyond 10 of your weirdness. Well these are my weird thots, I mean thoughts. Carry on. 😂😂😂 ❤

**Thoughts of Taris** #38…..